Unbearable Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often begin with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

The official guidelines need updating to reflect a
Cheyenne Castro
Cheyenne Castro

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